Many are asking me, Why I am not courting anyone yet? And sometimes they even ask me if I am gay? If I am still interested in women?
While others even call me an awkward person or a blundering fool or "torpe".
But actually, I am not gay, and I am not awkward towards women either, I just do not want to court or to search for a potential lady for myself, because currently I have nothing to prove or to offer nor to give and to share.
I also do not want the necessities and luxury of my future girlfriend to be received from my parents just by asking them.
What I want is simple, and that is to be a great inspiration and a source of happiness for the woman that I will love.
And I will only try to find her and face her and her family once I become a man of substance; and have something to prove and to offer, to be a man that is worthy enough to love her.
Even if I get rejected in the end, at least; I know and I will say to myself and to anyone; that at least I tried, and that I will be able to say thank you to her, because she became my inspiration to become a responsible guy.
To be a man that I've always wanted to become.
