Soulless86

I'm just striving to achieve in the company that I am currently employed under I find myself excited for work I've never had that I simply do my best to have a positive impact on day to day operations l actually really like the folks I work with and even all the big shots seem to be worth there weight in gold when it comes to policy and the way to do things via by the book want to give back to this world with a net positive impact I'm no genius but I know i tend to look at situations differently "outside the box" I suppose this would articulate the proper term I've been informed by past employers that I'm good at finding more efficient methods when it comes to procedures. When I'm not working I am setting up my side hustle learning all I can about coding I am obsessed with artificial intelligence and machine learning algorithms I have always enjoyed learning what exactly goes into something and how those essential parts come together to form a working product how the smallest change in some essential code can make or break the security of the device/software and how best to both circumvent that or how best to implement it I'm currently getting my workshop put together for future endeavors bug hunts looking for vulnerabilities in anything from your everyday app to hopefully working for a company or foundation or agency with access to the national security level of overseeing and guarding systems that are tied to critical infrastructure or national defense I am not good at much but I find a almost unquenchable thirst when it comes to these areas. AI is another area that is growing at such a rapid pace that the top minds in the field have publicly stated they don't completely understand the very thing they are creating that should be sending everyone into a state of whoa what? Imagine the human race as the occupants in a vehicle now imagine ai is that vehicle We are driving straight at a cliff in something that we have no idea if it's just a car or if it's one of those James Bond style jet cars if we are wrong we could all die but if we are right even if the car can fly we still have to land we need to focus more on the containment and monitoring of said systems and slow down on just trying to figure out how best to apply these systems for mass use and monetary gain these programs hold endless potential for both good and evil these are quite literally something that we have no idea what there capabilities are essentially we are looking at something that holds the potential to be the most dangerous thing ever conceived by the human race and we are very good at making things that kill other people that's my professional life my personal life is a bit more simplistic I want to be the best father I can I have 2 daughters my oldest is about to be 17 and my youngest is 11 i want to help them grow into responsible eager driven women tough and intelligent but most days I find myself at a loss for valuable advice not that there asking for it I find that in my experience often the most brutal and difficult mistakes are ones you can try to warn them about to try and keep them both safe and try and protect them from failure and emotional torment but it appears that those are the ones they will only ever learn from by going thru it because it's one thing to hear about something it's another to live it I am trying to be more open to life and it's adventures but I find it difficult to make time for simple things as I struggle with being accepted in most crowds and find alot of people rather dull I spoke to a biologist at work the other day she needed some items for some equipment she was setting up to study eco location in bats she knew all about the tech she needed I found myself blown away by her depth of knowledge and wit she was very attractive and for the first time in a long time I realized after she left that I hadn't had to dumb down anything and I realized that for me I am nothing to look at but I'm not gonna lie and say I don't like a beautiful woman but I think ultimately it's intelligence that I find to be the most important aspect of a woman I struggle with things like most do I am willing to admit that I have made plenty of mistakes in my interpersonal relationships and with my children but I refuse to be anything less than the best version of me because that is what they deserve it's a slow process but as they say it is not the destination but rather the journey that is important so I take it day by day trying to improve myself just a little more each day striving to be better than i was the day before i dont expect anyone to have read this but i am gonna say i am also very good at spotting fake people and I am obsessed with psychology and how to spot the dark triad of personality types im also very good at spotting avoidant personality types so if your not gonna be honest open and straight with me and more importantly with yourself then please just keep swiping I have zero tolerance for manipulation or liar's I look forward to the prospect of meeting someone who is mentally and psychologically healthy and who actually knows how to be a adult and conduct themselves as one take care and keep on keeping on.