I'm a very creative person, enjoy baking, drawing & writing. I also enjoy being out in nature, spend a lot of time by the waterside near my apt. I live a pretty simple life and enjoy it that way, don't crave the fancier things in life too much, would just like someone to share those simple moments with. Not looking for meaningless hang out, hoping to find someone I can build a true connection with through mutual interests and open communication. I find society a bit overbearing these days, a bit too woke for me and far too easily offended. I avoid large events for the most part, and tend to ignore most fads that come and go, with very little interest, never really been for me. I'm not foolish enough to expect perfection from anyone, we all fight our own battles, and I certainly don't claim to be perfect in any way myself but I do try my best to be upfront with my flaws and I am doing my best to work on those I can ;) In the spirit of being upfront, I am a smoker, of both cigarettes and pot, and I do smoke A LOT of both. I'm not a dazed stoner in any way, have a very high tolerance and am fully functional when having smoked, I just enjoy the taste more than anything ;) (but it does also help with anxiety and appetite) It would be lovely to find a similar level smoker but that seems impossible, so someone who would at least smoke a joint with me from time to time would be nice I think the best way to describe me, overall, both in personality and physically is that I'm pretty much an even balance of feminine and butchy, tough as nails when need be, but able to be soft & sensual when I choose to be ;) This bothers many, I think it's not a common mix the way it is with me so it throws them off lol, but for the right kind of people, it's the very best of both worlds :) A girl with a nice feminine physique, that can carry her own weight, stick up for herself, and yet is small and soft enough to want to hold in your arms at night :) Oh and maybe the mouth of sailor but not one that craves outward attention, so I just tend to swear a lot and have a dark sense of humour - I dont cause drama or stares lol :p As my username suggest, my hope has been a bit beaten up in the past but I'm still holding on, maybe there's actually someone out there for weird ol' me ;)
